Worst Experience in My Life

Monday morning, as usual I was in deep sleep till 8 AM. My dreamful eyes were trying to be opened by the din of my phone without success and my finger actively pressed the disconnect button as the sound was irritating me. Again, it started ringing and I tried picking the call with closed eyes. A female worried tone made my eyes open with tears and the flow of current through my body. It was my sister who gave me unpredictable news. The call was from Odisha and I was at Chennai at that time.

The entire ambiance changes, when an unexpected thing happens to human being. Exactly same thing happened to me at that particular moment by unexpected death news of my Dad. The helpless situation, grief and the dark ambiance made me lonely and took me to the different world where I was not able to see and listen to anyone. Also, my mental presence was lost to control myself. Unfortunately, there was no direct flight to Bhubaneswar as per my plan but the connecting flight was available where I had to wait five hours at Hydrabad airport for next flight.

Those five hours are not expressible. Time was not running fast as usual. Concealing my emotion and controlling the tears, I was trying to show myself bold even though the gloomy situation made me weak internally. The calls, coming from various relatives were making me irritate as they were not concerned about my condition but they wanted to complete the funeral process without me as soon as possible. I was feeling like an alien in the airport as all were giving me the unusual looks. Probably, this situation made me to be different unconsciously. However, I managed the situation controlling myself and got the second flight to Bhubaneswar.

With over expectation, I went to the home as I was going to see my Dad last time. When I entered in to my home, the ambiance was silent and all were looking relaxed. Being speechless, I was looking for my Dad from one room to another room. All were staring at me without opening their mouth as they were aware that I was looking for my Dad. My tears rolled down to my cheeks and the long breaths were released to mingle with air. My sister hugged me and whispered in my ear stating, “the funeral process has been completed.” The soil under my feet started slipping and all the organs of my body were collapsed. I could not understand how to react and was finding out the way to see my Dad again. I wanted to be alone at that time to feel my Dad’s presence, to see him as a star in the sky and to pass my love through the fresh air.